Anger and Courage

I'm not sure which daughter is responsible for our latest decision.

We picked our donor. We were thisclose to parting with $16k. And then we got cold feet.

I went in for baselines on April 1. My hormones all came back in a pretty decent range (for me, anyway). And so we made the last minute decision to try again this cycle before moving on with donor eggs. There are a million reasons why this won't work. And why this is tantamount to throwing both logic and money out the window. But hope is not often logical. And we have grown accustomed to losing money. And maybe this time we will get lucky. And if not, then maybe this will be what we need to feel truly confident about closing the door on this method of family building.

P.S. I realize I never finished my last post. One day I will. But not today.